Honestly? I never thought I’d make it this far.
If I survive the next 10 days, I will genuinely be so proud.
I had a number of goals for 2015, some I achieved and others I will just have to try for next year. I didn’t learn to drive, or to speak German or even learn to tread water, but I did get a job, I did dye my hair blue and I did go to a live concert.
But I think I achieved more than just that. I mean, I turned 20, which is more than 15 year old me ever believed I could. I graduated to 2nd year of uni. I have a boyfriend of nearly 6 months. I learnt how to rely on only myself for happiness, and how to block out unnecessary negativity.
In 2016, it will be 6 years since my dad died. 4 years since I left secondary school, and 3 years since I started writing my novel. In 2016 I aim to focus more on my blog, and dedicate myself more to building my career, and getting used to reading novels in French. 2016 will be the year I travel more to places of my own choice, the year I buy a camera and the year that I read at least 60 books. 2016 will be the year, and I believe this because I’ve spent the last 20 years of my life figuring myself out and learning from all my mistakes, and now I feel like I’m ready. I’ve gone over my notes, I’ve done my research, I know what to do. In 2016 I’m going to be 21. The next 10 days will be the mourning period for my childhood, and then, I’m ready to start living.